Here's the thing for me, and I recently wrote about it. I try not to judge. I was rasied Baptist, almost converted to Judiasm (because I felt a calling and hey, if you want BS, might as well go level 1). Anyway, this God, I just can't believe. I tried and tried. But my intelelct will not accept it.

If there's a loving God out tehre, please explain how over 7000 and counting Indiginous children died at the hands of his servants in my country of Canada. Please explain how slavery was cool. Please explain the subjugation of women and the racism agaisnt my brothers and sisters in the name of the Mark of Cain.

The Bible, like occultism, like wicca is a primitive attempt to explain what couldn't be explained and to order society. That's it, that's all.

I wanted to beleive. I wanted that comfort. It's so easy to have the rules all laid out. But it's like Mother Goose, a tale and nothing more.