I can't even imagine what you're going through. And I'm certainly no believer in the afterlife. That said, my husband and I have a connection that defies natural laws. I can be out shopping and I feel, in a very literal sense, what he wants. I can sit somewhere just randomly thinking and we're thinking the same thing.
He may very well be there. If it provides you comfort and some guidance, why not.
I have no answers. I dont know what comes after death, all I know is the connection of two people truly in love is absolutely real and absolutely defies logical explanation.