I can't say I know what you're feeling, I don't. I'm a woman, always felt like one, body and soul match up perfectly.

That said, without judgment, you need to do you. Do what you feel is right and what you feel is best for you and your family. If this is the lesser of two evils, so be it. You're between a rock and a hard place. I can't even imagine.

Life is a journey. What works and is right today may not be so later. Love yourself, keep an open heart and continue to grow.

Wishing you all the best.