I feel this! As you know, I too have been stalked, repeatedly, but thankfully none have resulted in me being almost killed. There have been 6 men who legit, in person stalked me, 3 or 4 online and then a couple of crazy women who had a beef. It is absolutely terrifying and I honestly don't know it it ever goes away. To this day, if an unexpected knock comes at the door or the phone rings and I don't recognize the number, I can feel that panic begin to well up...and it takes like 3 fucking hours to recover. I moved to the middle of nowhere to get away from it. I forgot that I can't get away from my own damn head.