I feel this, of course you already know that. When the one person in life that's supposed to love an dprotect you and then doesn't, it's a huge headfuck! My mother was awful in many ways, but I was adopted, so she didn't carry me.

My husband, however, has struggled with a mother who both birthed and seemily hated him.

Maternal rejection is tough. The pain is real. It's hard to reconcile. I'm still working through it.

But know, you're beautiful, you're smart and you're worthy. Maybe she couldn't (I suspect she could but didn't want to), but we all see you. Your animals see you And I think you're beginning to see you.