I normally don't post links but in this case it's appropriate, I think. I wrote a piece a while back about my hair journey that you may enjoy:
https://mistyrae.medium.com/white-skin-black-hair-969f3674f643
I grew up in the 70s and 80s and HATED my hair. Add to that living in a town where there was no such thing as product for whatever was going on on my head.
Now, I LOVE my hair. It's my thing, my "mane," and my crowing glory...that and the bodacious booty that I had when stick thin was in, but that's another story. Just subscribed to you because I'm looking forward to hearing more about your journey,