I'll be 51 in July, I've always been a size 0, I still am, but the distribution of fat seems different, bodies change. I can feel myself kinda heading toward size 2 and it honestly terrifies me. Being small was always part of my identity. And I love to eat. Then I smack myself for being so ridiculous. I need to do that. My body has changed, but it still works, I have eyes that see, legs that work, and on and on. And just this past week, I lost another hihg school friend, this is #17 in the past 8 - 10 years. THAT puts it all in perspective.