No worries. I'm so glad you're taking care of yourself. I have a son who is an alcoholic. He's 29 and brilliant. So much promise. But I've been through the roller coaster of the depths of addiction, then the hope you let yourself have, only to get your ass kicked yet again.... He's here with us now, hasn't had a drink in 2 months (cuz he's broke and we won't allow it in our home), and just landed himself a good job at a local plant, a full time union job that could very well set him up for life. I'm so happy for him.....yet, the fear is there, that voice in my head that worries as soon as he moves out, he'll go back to booze and fuck it all up. It's the roller coaster that's so cruel in this disease for those of us that are bystanders. Jesus, I may have to write about this