On a positive note, given the Lupus =free food comment, you haven't lost your sarcasm, if that were the case, I'd be really worried. Now that my uncomfortable attempt at being slightly amusing is out of the way, do know lots of people care, you, father, husband, friends, reader and even me.

It's okay to be out of words. You're sick and hurting
This ain't ballet or gymnastics, there's no obligation to perform when you're not up to it. Easier to intellectualize that than it is to really internalize it, I know, but it's still true.

Rest, the words will come back and we'll all be here waiting when they do. 😊