Wow! I'm not sure what to say to that. If you're in fact sincere and I have no reason to doubt that you are, I'm so sorry you feel that way. I can understand being ashamed of what European ancestors did. I'm half white and am certainly ashamed of the legacy of colonization and slavery they took part in. For me, I guess, it's not about hating that part of myself, it's more a recognition of the past and the knowledge and hopefully ability to do better.